I Have Been Engaged for Five Months but Met Him Only Twice. The Wedding Is in Three Months—Is It Normal to Feel I Am Marrying a Stranger?
I graduated a year ago and started working two months ago. This match came through my aunt. Our first meeting was in front of my entire family, and I was so nervous that I barely said two words. The second meeting was almost the same. Everything I know about him comes from his mother and sister. They say he has good character, is observant and would never let me down, and he genuinely seems respectable; I cannot deny that. But I do not know how he thinks, what makes him laugh or how he behaves when he is angry. I asked my mother for a third meeting, but she said it would be improper for us to request one and that I could speak to him freely after the marriage contract. The wedding is three months away, the venue is booked and the invitations are about to be printed. Every night I lie awake wondering whether he is a good man and I am judging someone I have not given a chance, or whether I am about to marry someone I simply do not know. I am terrified of stopping everything over a feeling that may be unfounded, but I am also terrified of continuing and discovering problems later that cannot be overcome. For women who married after meeting their husbands only twice, what were the early days like? Should I ask to speak to him by phone before the marriage contract, or would that be inappropriate? Should I rely on istikhara and continue, or tell my family plainly that I do not feel comfortable?